How much attention

How much attention do you want from me? There’s no end to it.

You’re probably asking yourself isn’t he getting tired of me, all day, asking, expressing, laughing, asking where you are? what are you doing? So many questions...some of them you claim are from jealousy... you simply are creating a reality where you are everything in my life which is what you so desperately want to believe. But maybe asking yourself if it’s from the fear of losing me. Maybe you’re afraid of missing the moment so you hold on tightly, maybe fear is running the show.

Maybe not. Maybe everything is fine even when it feels like it’s not. Maybe I don’t give you enough certain answers. Maybe the confidence in you and us that I give is lacking. You wake up with me in the morning, live with me everyday, and go to sleep with me at night. Maybe you’ll get sick of this, maybe I will. Maybe when life tests us: moving in, strengthening our relationship, seeing each other on a daily basis. Maybe then we’ll drift apart, not find the bridge that we can meet in again and again. So much maybe.

Maybe the questions of guilt and jealousy exist because you care about me so much. You care about me like you’ve never cared about yourself or anyone else. And that should never be taken for granted, it should provide infinite strength that you keep alive in me the power of life. Someone who loves you so strongly that they just want what’s best for you. And the fear doesn’t control you, it just sets you on fire, creates hunger for more. You use it to create more and more passion and to strengthen love. All you need is to see that I live inside of you and you inside of me. The distance doesn’t matter or if we meet today or not but what does matter is what we mean to each other. That has value that is second to none. Someone actually chose me, you are chosen. That is the wise perspective. Even that jealousy is all because I am everything to you so why are you blaming your self or think that I will be angry or distant? Why would I to someone who cares for me more than I could ever imagine? Words can’t describe such a strong emotion... hard to explain... so don’t explain, just smile.. come to me and hold me tight

By Eli Dom